The problem is, now that they're a little more mobile, they want to start to roll over in their sleep. The way I have them nestled in my arms makes this impossible for them. That makes them mad and they wake up much more frequently at night. I don't know what to do. I don't want to give up sleeping with them, but I think they want more freedom. I think they're waking up more because they're uncomfortable, but I don't know that for sure. The weird thing is, before I had kids, I never thought I would want them to sleep in my bed. After Lena and Liberty came along, everything changed. It's funny how that happens. I never thought I would want to breast feed past 6 months, now I cry if I think about the fact that I will have to give it up one day. I knew parenting would be emotional, but I really had no idea how emotional it would be. Every day I am in awe of my daughters and I can't imagine my life before they came along. I can't imagine putting this much energy and love toward anything else.

The other day I was shopping for clothes for them and I found myself looking at all of the preemie clothes instead of the 6 to 9 month clothes. I was practically in tears when I found outfits just like the ones that they wore home from the hospital. I just can't believe how quickly time goes now that I have children. Two days ago, letting them sleep in my bed was fine with everybody. Now they want more freedom. I'm sure this will seem inconsequential when they're 16 and they *really* want freedom. Let's not think about that for now. I'm just going to concentrate on the fact that they still have to let me hold them if they want to eat!